With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams...

Knee is still sore, and I'm just going to rest it & hope things go well at PT on Monday.  I did my PT exercises, and went on a 9.5 mile bike ride.  Great ride going out- headwind the whole way back.  At one point, I was pedaling, but the wind was so strong I wasn't sure I was actually moving forward. 

Good bike ride.

It was cold out this morning, so I decided to do elliptical in the am and go for a run after PT in the evening when I'd have some new tape on my knee.  The tape really seems to help.  It's not going to fix the problem, but it lets me do what I love (hopefully while the problem is healing).

Hurried to PT after work, and left totally disappointed.  They said based on what I'd told them about the running & the painful down-the-stairs movement, they wanted to wait for further treatment until they'd heard what the orthopedic dr said.

Well, I still haven't heard back from the referral.  I made some phone calls after I got home, and I guess, according to the insurance people, the referral was "lost."  So I have to start over again at where I was Nov 8th with that.  The PT didn't tape my knee, didn't really do anything but talk to me.  Not their fault about the referral being lost- it just sucks that I'm not any further ahead than I was 3 weeks ago.

I do like to whine, but don't feel like I'm usually someone who feels sorry for myself.  But tonight, I'm going to feel sorry for myself, let the tears go & wallow. 

Tomorrow, I'm calling and getting the referral put back in the system.  I'm going to try & be nice and pleasant to the nit-wits on the phone who "lost" it to begin with.  They'd already gone home for the day by the time I figured out what had happened today.  Bless their little hearts.

I'll wear my new, light weight shoes tomorrow too- just in case I end up putting my foot in my mouth.  Fillet of Sole is always a tasty dish...especially when served with humble pie.

20 or 30 minutes on elliptical.  can't remember & not sure it matters.

Physical therapy strengthening exercises.

45-50 min elliptical.  I was reading an awesome article referred to me by a friend about a truly inspirational young athelete who was always positive, even when cancer took hold of her and shook her like a rag-doll.   My 45 min workout ended, but I hadn't finished the article, so I put the resistance back on and kept moving while I finished the story and shed a tear or two. 

My knee will heal.  I'll get to run again.  I have been given so much, and other than a nasty little attitude I keep in my back pocket for special occasions, my life is very, very good. 

There are little miracles every day, and angles that lift us & give us strength when we're down.  Thanks to all you angels wearing running shoes who are pulling me along right now.

Happy Hanukkah everyone.  A nice night to remember another little miracle.

30 minutes elliptical

physical therapy exercises

went to PT & tried to learn how to apply the tape to my knee.  There will be a learning curve, but I got the ok to run on it as long as there isn't pain. 

Now I just have to "take er easy" and not over due anything.

I was going to wear my just above the knee-length skirt today, but after looking at my black taped up knees (they did both for the training)  I put the skirt back on the hanger and wore pants.  Short skirt Thursdays are going to be put on hold for a while :-(

Hoping for a nice, slow, short jog in the morning.  :-)

Had to go to walmart at 5 am to get milk since we'd been out for 3 days and my kids were going on strike.  Of course while I was there in my sleepy stupor, I managed to find $80 worth of other things I just really needed (not).

So after putting the groceries away, it was time to get ready, but I went out for a quick loop around the block.  did a long warm up walk, then ran 1.2 miles.  Felt good, and I went slow & easy.  I think the KT could be a little better, but it was junior's first try & he did a pretty good job for  his first time.

Wyatt & I decided to do our errands & cleaning in the morning and ren/bike later on when it was warmer.

I was all ready and pulled the car out of the garage & put the bike on top when it started to rain/sleet.  Oh well.  I left the bike in the garage & drove to Wyatt's house thinking it would be great to try out my new rain jacket for a short run.   A thought also occured to me that it would be a great day for sitting around & drinking hot cocoa.

When I got to Wyatt's house, she was coming out of the barn and said "shouldn't we just have some hot cocoa and make cookies?"  Well, duh.

We drank hot cocoa and made pecan bars.  It was wonderful.  Simply wonderful.

Sometimes it's good not to run :-)